Another rescheduling!

I am pretty upset today.  I am still stewing over my heart doctor appointment on Monday.  I was scheduled for a angiogram and stenting of some major blockages on the 26th of this month and made sure with the doctor's assistant that all was in order.  Even had my blood work done.

Only to come home and find a letter in the mail explaining to me that the doctor won't be in the office at all that day and they had to reschedule until June 4th.  Okay, I know it's only a week and 2 days later than the original schedule date but this is the third time they have done this to me this year!  To them it is just another surgery/procedure, but to me it is a very important step to being able to get on with my life.  The blockage are in my legs and there is one in the main aorta just above where it splits to feed the legs and one to my right kidney that is almost totally blocked.  I had a 99% blockage in one of the bypasses from open heart surgery 8 years ago and they were able to stent that a couple of weeks ago and I am feeling better.  But at this point, with the other blockages, my kidney function is too low, and I am barely able to walk 100 yards without needing to sit down and rest because my calf's hurt so bad I could just cry!  And to top it all off, they are not sure if they can even take care of the blockages in the lower legs this time or if it will have to wait for a later date because they don't think my body will tolerate the contrast dye they have to use being I have an allergy to it!  I am so frustrated at the present time, and yet I do understand that the doctors have a very stressful job and perhaps need to have some time off, if that is the case.  After all, it is a holiday weekend.............Memorial Day.  Well, I guess later will have to work because it can't be done sooner.  I guess I will just have to accept the fact that it is what it is and go from there.

Amber's ongoing saga...............

she falls in and out of love a dozen times a month. And each time she is postive her heart will break. I am sympathetic, yet I am glad. For it means that she isn't getting too serious with one boy at her age and there is less worry about intimate relations going on. Although we have talked over and over about that and the consequences of what can happen and how it changes your life forever, especially should she become pregnant. I hope she remembers the things we talked about and the things she was taught when she lived with us. I would like to think that during the fomrative years she lived with us, some of what we tried to teach her has stuck with her and she will remember! Please God, watch over this young girl and keep her safe and give her reminders of how she was raised in a Christian home and how much we and You love her!

It has happened............

.........my second born grand daughter, Amber, whose picture appears above, has reached the age that she would rather spend time with her friends than come visit us and spend weekends with us. Use to be, we were her whole world. She lived for the weekends and was here every chance she could be. She spent every vacation with us, took many trip with us and always came on Christmas Day and stayed all of Christmas break with us. "To everything there is a season" and as sad as it seems............this season with her has ended. Oh, I am sure we will still see her, just not as much as we use too. She is our 'little girl' whom we had guardianship of for most of the first 5 years of her life, so in a way, she almost seems more like a child than a grandchild. It feels as if something has been ripped out of my heart..........and yet, I knew this day was coming. It's just that it arrived much sooner than I was prepared for and way sooner than I wanted it too! But it is inevitable..............life goes on, people grow up and change and the daily contact you once had vanishes into thin air.

I know this throuogh the deaths of my parents at a young age and my first husband at the young age of 34. But maybe it is something you are never prepared to lose.........even a small portion of that contact. Yet, Amber is not dead, she still walks this earth and I still get an occasioanl phone call from her and I guess that will have to be good enough..........until the next season arrives!

Well, where has the time gone. Here it is October 19th already. I think I must have slept through the summer...........I don't remember much summer this year. Of course, it could be because we didn't have much summer this year. Most people feel the same way.............it seems as if it went from spring to a few nice summery days and right back to fall. And now I'm wondering if winter will make an early appearance too!

Today, one of our grand daughters turns 6 and yesterday our oldest child, Michelle, turned 41. How did that happen so quickly? And I've been thinking that I'm still in my 40's! No wonder I can't keep up with all these younger people anymore. I'm WAY older than I thought I was!

We had a partial family portrait taken by our oldest daughter the photographer and she did a great job. I wish we could have had the other son and his family here for it too.............but nothing ever works out perfectly.......at least for me! The above photo is it.

Okay, I know this is short, but I need to go and get some things started and finished. Hopefully it won't be so long before I post next.

Back again! Without much to say or write about. Have been very busy with work and family. Had Rachel and her family up for the 4th of July weekend and that was nice. My baby sister had been here from Colorado the week before that and really enjoyed seeing her again and spending time with both my older and younger sisters. Funny how you don't realize how important they are to you until you get older. Sure wish I could spend more time with both of them. Went shopping with my older sister last Saturday and talked and talked and talked some more. Funny how we never seem to run out of things to talk about. the only thing that would have made it perfect is if our younger sister could have joined us for the shopping trip!

Partial Family Photo

I guess this is the closest we will get to getting the entire family in one picture. One son is missing with his fiancee and 3 more of his children and 2 of hers. I always set my expectation's too high for success.

The photographer, who just happens to be my daughter, took this using a timer and her tripod. Needless to say, she had to be very quick on her feet to make it into the photo before the camera went off. She's the one standing in the back on the right in a white shirt. I'm very proud of her........she does a great job. She got some awesome shots of the different family groups who wanted portraits too, and did a photo shoot of my grand daughter, Amber. I will post some of those at a different time.

I am pressed for time again.....getting to be my new normal lately.........and must go...........but I will be back.........eventually!

May 16, 2009

Monday, April 27, 2009, hubbys Grandmother went to her resting place, thus completing her journey in this world and is now in heaven. It was a hard week in many ways because she was something so special to each of us.............and there are a LOT of us. She was 91 years old last October......she lived a long, sometimes very hard and sometimes easy, life. We know she is with our Maker and dancing with Grandpa Joe. She is truly where she wanted to be these past few years. A few weeks back she confided in me that it was taking 'just too damn long to die!' Will we miss her? Of course, but I couldn't wish her back here to suffer when she can be celebrating in heaven. In fact, that is what I am doing. I am celebrating her life. I came into her life just 19 short years ago and have been blessed just to know her. She accepted everyone, without judging. She treated everyone with respect and dignity. May you have many dances with Grandpa Joe!



Fast forward to Sunday, May 17, 2009. I have been very busy working full=time......40 hours a week. The front desk gal at corporate headquarters had surgery and they needed someone to fill in for her. They asked me to do full-time there and they asked the gal I job share with to go full-time in our office. We have been doing this for a few weeks now, and my job-sharer and I are more than ready to return to our normal work hours. Hoping that front desk gal will recover and be able to return to her job by no later than June 2nd!

Our puppy, Cocoa is growing like a weed. Our older dog, Prancer, has decided to accept her into the family and actually likes her now and enjoys her company and playing rough and tough romping through the backyard, and often in the house, with her!

I will try and post some new photos of her soon so you get a better idea of how big she is getting.