Saturday, January 9, 2010

It has happened............

.........my second born grand daughter, Amber, whose picture appears above, has reached the age that she would rather spend time with her friends than come visit us and spend weekends with us. Use to be, we were her whole world. She lived for the weekends and was here every chance she could be. She spent every vacation with us, took many trip with us and always came on Christmas Day and stayed all of Christmas break with us. "To everything there is a season" and as sad as it seems............this season with her has ended. Oh, I am sure we will still see her, just not as much as we use too. She is our 'little girl' whom we had guardianship of for most of the first 5 years of her life, so in a way, she almost seems more like a child than a grandchild. It feels as if something has been ripped out of my heart..........and yet, I knew this day was coming. It's just that it arrived much sooner than I was prepared for and way sooner than I wanted it too! But it is inevitable..............life goes on, people grow up and change and the daily contact you once had vanishes into thin air.

I know this throuogh the deaths of my parents at a young age and my first husband at the young age of 34. But maybe it is something you are never prepared to lose.........even a small portion of that contact. Yet, Amber is not dead, she still walks this earth and I still get an occasioanl phone call from her and I guess that will have to be good enough..........until the next season arrives!

3 comments:

janeywan said...

They do grow up and fast don't they. My son moved out not quite a year ago, I still miss that knowing where he is and that he'll be home eventually.
Saw him today, we had lunch together. We do get along much better now that we don't live under the same roof.
Amber will always stay in close touch with you I'm sure.

clew said...

My Grandma Charlton watched me when my Mom went back to work and quite often for much of my tender years. We always shared a special closeness - even through the volatile preteen and teen years when I was much more busy with other people and things, we were always bound. You and Amber will be too. :)

from my motorhome to yours said...

we raised out grand daughter for 12 years last year her mon wanted her back, i know how you feel